I'm a verdant believer that God gives us the strength we need to get through each day, each problem, each crisis that the curveballs of life throw at our heads. But with that blessing, comes a "but". The "but" is that each day seems to avail a new issue to conquer. Strategies must develop, plans must be formed, the war room of our psyche has to start the cogs churning again to get past the next life or death ordeal headed our way.
I think about this as I lay in my bed watching the Oregon/California football game after a long, but rewarding day of choreography at Grosse Pointe High School in Detroit. An apparently pulled, strain or torn muscle near my collar bone is the new culprit, making any position I lay in seem awkward and unfriendly towards sleep. Some days it's money, worries about family, a speeding ticket, the state of our country. Other days it's stuff that can only be described as dumb and ridiculous. Let me rattle off a few of the things that have kept me up at night over the past few weeks:
-Misplacing my car keys
-Wondering if I set my alarm clock properly!
-Thinking I heard something downstairs (yeah, the CAT!)
-A $40 modeling check for my daughter
-Our dog Fizzy exhaling too loudly over and over
-Forgetting where I work the following day
-The pillow won't stay cold enough
-Too much garlic for dinner!!
See, it's just dumb, a'int it? But it's this omnipresent, ever-changing, morphing carnival of concern. One day serious, the next irrelevant; vacillating between the real and imagined, strange and comical, and the boring and peculiar.
I need to do a better job of letting go and giving these things over to God, but it's tough when they've been your companions for so long. If I don't have this stuff to think about and fixate on, will that make me lonely and isolated,.......ahhh, now I have something new to stew over!
POST SCRIPT: 2 days after making this entry I was dancing at Viterbo University and did a layout,....MAJORLY pulled abdominal muscle!!! Say it with me,...."it's always something"!! Sometimes ya' just gotta' laugh.
